I must apologize. My thoughts have been poisoned, of late, with an ever-increasing resentment, and with a certain vindictive unrest…
All of these things are flesh, and they will burn away if I let them, leaving me pure. If I do not let them burn, however…if I allow them to remain, then they will grow, and they will continue to affect everything I do. Even my efforts to help and to heal — these will become damaging in and of themselves.
It is for allowing this pattern of toxicity to remain that I must beg forgiveness from you all.
Would that my heart were able only to be awesome, but it’s not. It’s also quite capable of being the opposite of awesome, and it does tend to lean that way fairly often, when I am not performing my due diligence in its various types and forms. I did make French toast the other day, and it was good, but it could have been better. That is something that I am also working on, in life.