Because addiction has become your world, sobriety will seem at first like it is the most difficult thing you have ever done. Because of this, you will probably need support.
This may run counter to what seems like your deepest instinct, as isolation is generally one of the main goals of the person who is addicted, but that is one instinct that you must openly rebel against if you are to succeed. People are necessary to the process.
After some time has passed, the difficulty will subside, and you will be able to learn and grow again, unhindered by the fetters of ignorance and pain that you had once wrapped around yourself so tightly. You will be able to really enjoy things again, enjoy them as they are, without chemical enhancement. The color will return, things will taste good again, you will be able to laugh, to imagine, to create…to believe.
You will be you again.
Maybe it’s been so long that you’ve forgotten who you were. If this is the case, then you are in for a wonderful surprise, because you are awesome, and you are beautiful, and you are absolutely worth loving.
It will take time, and probably a good deal of effort, but the investment will absolutely pay off as you begin to step into this new reality.
Do not believe the lies when they come. Those whispering taunts and inner distress signals that urge you to give up, and tell you that resistance is futile — these are your enemies, and they are wrong.
You can do this. You can and you will. You will succeed.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other, and focus on making that next right choice.
You’ve got this.