This spiritual journey does not always happen exactly as I would choose, but it is nonetheless happening in the direction of life and growth. The critical, negative words that appear in my mind have no part in me. They fall away as quickly as they come, as life wells up from within and fulfills everything. This is the way things are now.
The old, destructive patterns still try to happen from time to time. When they do, I do not allow it to freak me out. Instead, I take myself by the hand and say, “Listen, self: it’s time to walk away from this stuff now. It’s icky, and you know where it leads. Don’t let it fool you. Come away now to that better place that you know lies within, beyond the struggle, beyond the pain. Be at peace.”
It’s not always easy. In fact, it’s usually not. But every time I work through this sort of thing, I get stronger. I get better at learning. I get more adept at life in general.